You have to know your life to own it and you have to own your life to overcome it. – me
RESTORE-ation started as a support group for others who have been sexually abused. It became my own journey to know, own and overcome my own life when emerging memories began to reveal a reality much darker and more painful than the first memories of sexual abuse that occurred during the grooming and conditioning phase. As these darker memories locked up inside me began to surface, I started the process of knowing, owning and overcoming. I am being restored, day by day.
Restoration is a hard process. It involves tearing out old beliefs, mindsets and even protective mechanisms to face the real truth underneath. And then the work really begins. Then the processing and overcoming has to be worked out or one remains stuck in a vicious cycle of suffering. The goal is to be fully RESTOREd. The “-ation” is the process through which that is accomplished.
My desire to bring restoration to others is still a driving factor. It is the main reason this blog still exists. (I’ve almost deleted it many times.) My hope is my struggle and story will help someone else dealing with the same or similar issues. There is a deep need to know that even evil can be used for good; that there is purpose in our suffering and pain. That somehow, someway, God really does make all things work together.
As I wrestle through the healing process, I pray my story will be a place of understanding and hope for those like me.