About the Author

I am a survivor of SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse) and cult abuse.  I was abused starting at the age of 5 in the early 1970’s.   I was directly affected for more than 14 years and indirectly affected until the Lord began surfacing direct SRA memories in 2012.

My RESTORE-ation story started at age 31 as I was just finishing  6 months of cancer treatment.  Memories of sexual abuse began to surface and I officially started my journey of restoration.  What I was remembering at that time was grooming and conditioning.  After working hard to overcome the effects of sexual abuse and embrace mental, emotional, physical and relational health for 5 years I found myself starting over in life with 2 young children.  Miraculously, a few years later I remarried and found that indeed I had come a long way in relational and emotional health.  I was growing in my relationship with the Lord as well.  I continued the journey with the attitude of  “I don’t want to just survive, I want to thrive!”  I didn’t want to just have “a” life; I want an full life.  John 10:10 became my motto; “life and life abundant” was my goal.

Eventually, I started a support group, RESTORE~ation, as a recovery group for those sexually abused in my church.  I wanted to give back what I had learned and also provide a safe place for Christians to find support since in my experiences I had found that there is not much of that available in the church.  Little did I know, my hardest memories were still buried deep within my subconscious and would make their way to the surface just at the time I thought my life was at it’s best.

After 12 years of peace, I began to deal with flashbacks, nightmares and full on demonic attacks.   SRA memories surfaced and the full reality of what had happened began to emerge.  I now had to learn how to deal with the unspeakable and experience a deeper grief and subsequent healing I didn’t know was possible.  During the first 2  years of that I mostly dealt with severe PTSD attacks and most of my counseling was to deal with the PTSD.

2 years into that process, the PTSD was lessened and I searched out help to deal with memories that were pressing.  Just as I was connecting with a counselor, the Lord revealed I had DID (disassociated identities).  I had no idea what this was or that I had other “personalities” until that time.  Through my own research, experience and limited counseling with an actual counselor familiar with SRA and DID I worked through the process of discovery and subsequent healing, deliverance and integration of 14+ years of SRA memories and the resulting disassociated identities over a period of 3 years.

I am now in a position I’ve never been before.  There are no more mysteries regarding my past.  It is open and bare before me.  All of it.  I have dealt with the devil – literally – and I have overcome.  I am being RESTORED.

Now I am embarking on a new journey – wholeness.  To be fully healed in every way so I can live as God intended for me all along: whole, complete and restored.  As I heal, I blog.  I deeply desire to help others and by blogging my experiences and lessons learned, I pray anyone needing help will find it here.

  RESTORE~ation is my story.

I will restore to you the years
    that the swarming locust has eaten,
the hopper, the destroyer, and the cutter,
    my great army, which I sent among you.

“You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied,
    and praise the name of the Lord your God,
    who has dealt wondrously with you.
And my people shall never again be put to shame.
You shall know that I am in the midst of Israel,
    and that I am the Lord your God and there is none else.
And my people shall never again be put to shame.”  Joel 2:25-28



2 thoughts on “About the Author

    1. Thank you for sharing. So glad God has brought you out of that family and delivered you from their demons. He is a good Father who watches over His children. God bless you!

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