After the Rain

It’s raining here today.  As a kid, rain was a comfort to me.  Not sure why.  The louder and more demonstrative the storm, the better I felt.  I wonder sometimes if it was just my way of feeling heard.  I did not know how to address or articulate the storm inside me so I quietly … More After the Rain

Transforming Truth

“Truth is connected to memory – both in our personal histories as well as the history of God’s redemptive actions performed on our behalf.”~ John J. Parsons.   As a survivor of sexual abuse, my view of my life was that of a series of horrendous events that left me a mess in not just mind … More Transforming Truth

Being Human

I learned a new concept recently.  It’s called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder – PTSD. Boy, does that explain a lot!! PTSD is a term for the various symptoms a person experiences following a traumatic event.  For those who have been sexually abused as children, PTSD usually shows up immediately in some form but can resurface … More Being Human

Hard Clarity

At the age of 3 and 4, I was deeply in love with Jesus. At 5, evil struck a traumatic blow. But God. Ten long months ago I resumed a journey I started 13 years ago that I thought I had completed.  In 2000, I had dealt with memories of sexual abuse that had surfaced … More Hard Clarity

Rain

Seeds are planted.  Rain comes. Hard. Something dies, then growth comes. Write.  Journal.   Ask.  Wait.  Grieve.  Process. That is where I am. Hard places. Out of the rain (tears) comes life anew. Growth. Renewal. Hope. Plenty. Health. Bursting forth. More than enough. Only after “the fullness of time” – kairos – does the harvest come. … More Rain

Grief Sucks

Are you going through grief from past abuse? I feel for you. I understand. I really do. My journey… April 15, 2013 The cycle of grief has started again and I’m frustrated.  I so want all this to be gone so I can move on.  I want to stop thinking about [abuser].  I want to … More Grief Sucks

Hard Things

The pulse beats hard and I am challenged to “get it all down before it goes away.”  I cringe.  I have created blogs for my thoughts and yet there are some I don’t want to even think about much less share.   But I sense the great need to record it.   Maybe just for myself to … More Hard Things

Lessons On the River

I recently read an article written by someone who enjoys the deep, philosophical, theological waters.   As I was dog paddling my way through sentences that require a day’s worth of careful analysis and a lifetime to absorb, I realized I am not a deep, philosophical, theological water person!  I can go there, if I focus … More Lessons On the River

How to NOT Fight

I love Oswald Chamber’s views on the point of putting on the armor of God.  He expresses that it’s not a picture of how to fight, but one of how not to fight.  Ephesians 6:13 clearly says, “Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil … More How to NOT Fight