He.Just.Can’t.Win

I’ve heard satan screaming.  It’s not an audible sound, it’s a spiritual awareness.   I don’t remember the first time I sensed it but in my wondering what this was, the Lord led me to Acts 19.  Paul was ministering to the Ephesians.  Many signs and wonders were displayed.  People came to the Lord and burned … More He.Just.Can’t.Win

The Bottom Line

The last few years have been a roller coaster of shocking events, life-shaking realizations and major adjustments. Some moments have been very traumatizing; some amazingly wonderful. It’s hard to articulate the emotions (and sometimes lack of) as I have traveled this varied and unusual way. Needless to say, it’s been a journey of miracles. I … More The Bottom Line

Psalm 18

Psalm 18 is my life chapter. It describes so much about my life it’s uncanny. My favorite part is in the first few verses: “I love you, Adonai, my strength! Adonai is my Rock, my Fortress and my Deliverer, my God, my Rock, in whom I find shelter, my Shield, the Power that saves me, … More Psalm 18

Broken

There is a song that recently came out that hits me so deeply. What do you think about when you look at me I know we’re not the fairy tale you dreamed we’d be You wore the veil, you walked the aisle, you took my hand And we dove into a mystery How I wish … More Broken

Heaven or Earth?

What God has declared over you in heaven is known by ALL of heaven. Like parents helping a child learn a new task – an especially challenging task – ALL of heaven is kneeling down with you giving words of careful instruction; just enough to help without telling you exactly what to do so that … More Heaven or Earth?

Transforming Truth

“Truth is connected to memory – both in our personal histories as well as the history of God’s redemptive actions performed on our behalf.”~ John J. Parsons.   As a survivor of sexual abuse, my view of my life was that of a series of horrendous events that left me a mess in not just mind … More Transforming Truth

Being Human

I learned a new concept recently.  It’s called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder – PTSD. Boy, does that explain a lot!! PTSD is a term for the various symptoms a person experiences following a traumatic event.  For those who have been sexually abused as children, PTSD usually shows up immediately in some form but can resurface … More Being Human

Hard Clarity

At the age of 3 and 4, I was deeply in love with Jesus. At 5, evil struck a traumatic blow. But God. Ten long months ago I resumed a journey I started 13 years ago that I thought I had completed.  In 2000, I had dealt with memories of sexual abuse that had surfaced … More Hard Clarity

Rain

Seeds are planted.  Rain comes. Hard. Something dies, then growth comes. Write.  Journal.   Ask.  Wait.  Grieve.  Process. That is where I am. Hard places. Out of the rain (tears) comes life anew. Growth. Renewal. Hope. Plenty. Health. Bursting forth. More than enough. Only after “the fullness of time” – kairos – does the harvest come. … More Rain

Grief Sucks

Are you going through grief from past abuse? I feel for you. I understand. I really do. My journey… April 15, 2013 The cycle of grief has started again and I’m frustrated.  I so want all this to be gone so I can move on.  I want to stop thinking about [abuser].  I want to … More Grief Sucks