From Death to Life

The Lord has been speaking to me about the fractures in our lives.  Mine were more pronounced due to the type of abuse I went through but we all have them whether we admit it or not.  When we are hurt or go through difficult experiences we try to shut down the pain of those … More From Death to Life

Agreements

The spirit realm by design is profoundly legal in its structure.  This includes both the Kingdom of God and the kingdom of darkness.  Agreements and vows made are powerful.  When they are made in accordance with the principles of God’s Kingdom they secure us to His will (i.e. when we “agree” with the Word of … More Agreements

Transforming Truth

“Truth is connected to memory – both in our personal histories as well as the history of God’s redemptive actions performed on our behalf.”~ John J. Parsons.   As a survivor of sexual abuse, my view of my life was that of a series of horrendous events that left me a mess in not just mind … More Transforming Truth

Being Human

I learned a new concept recently.  It’s called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder – PTSD. Boy, does that explain a lot!! PTSD is a term for the various symptoms a person experiences following a traumatic event.  For those who have been sexually abused as children, PTSD usually shows up immediately in some form but can resurface … More Being Human

Hard Clarity

At the age of 3 and 4, I was deeply in love with Jesus. At 5, evil struck a traumatic blow. But God. Ten long months ago I resumed a journey I started 13 years ago that I thought I had completed.  In 2000, I had dealt with memories of sexual abuse that had surfaced … More Hard Clarity

Rain

Seeds are planted.  Rain comes. Hard. Something dies, then growth comes. Write.  Journal.   Ask.  Wait.  Grieve.  Process. That is where I am. Hard places. Out of the rain (tears) comes life anew. Growth. Renewal. Hope. Plenty. Health. Bursting forth. More than enough. Only after “the fullness of time” – kairos – does the harvest come. … More Rain

Grief Sucks

Are you going through grief from past abuse? I feel for you. I understand. I really do. My journey… April 15, 2013 The cycle of grief has started again and I’m frustrated.  I so want all this to be gone so I can move on.  I want to stop thinking about [abuser].  I want to … More Grief Sucks

Hard Things

The pulse beats hard and I am challenged to “get it all down before it goes away.”  I cringe.  I have created blogs for my thoughts and yet there are some I don’t want to even think about much less share.   But I sense the great need to record it.   Maybe just for myself to … More Hard Things